Kind of amazing, but two weeks have passed since it was time to step aside and move on. That’s incredible. As I’ve mentioned to a couple of folks, being sick is for the employed, not the self or un employed and it’s really wiped me out. As others have mentioned, perhaps this is just my body reacting to what’s been a real grind for a long time and finally recovering.
What have you – the time is flying by but feeling good. It’s a strange feeling to be honest. I’ve been super busy, in the city out there making connections etc and not really spending much time at home, in fact hardly any. That feels good and bad. It’s amazing how living can creep into a full time and how quickly that can happen.
But what’s been also strange is what I don’t have time for recently. For perhaps the first time every, I’m looking at the Internet into my home as a huge time sink. I also have very little time to play Scrabulous or Scramble, despite the fact that I think they are great games, all of the sudden, in the midst of unlimited time to myself (which is actually a lie, I’ve got a lot of responsibilities that continue to impact that day to day), I just don’t seem to have the time for it.
I’d say my biggest fear is months are going to pass and I won’t have anything to show for it: No relaxing, no start up, no new gig – nothing. Again, in the freedom of everything and anything, it’s a little overwhelming not to be boxed in by anything.
I’ve thought for a long time that my parents generation really had some things easier, in particular in the role that employment played in their lives. In general, families went where the job was. There was no virtual offices, company jumping etc. In fact, given that, it’s amazing that S and I didn’t cross paths earlier since her Dad worked for Xerox and yet managed never to move to Rochester
. It gets back to my feelings on where we live that I had about 12 months ago. If I knew for 100% that NYC was my financial source, then my life would be perfectly aligned. Love our house, its location, etc. However, in the area of unlimited choices, it’s always sitting in the back of your mind – what if I moved? What if we did something else, and it’s really so much more about the thoughts of what we could do, rather than what we would actually do.
It’s unsettling that for sure.